149; recorded feelings

I have a habit of writing down my feelings in the Notes of my iPod. That’s a big secret that I just gave away. For this reason, no one is allowed to hold it for more than 5 seconds, and of course not allowed to touch anything except the dictionaries.

Most of the notes are extremely personal, some are wishful thinking, some are ranting, and everything. I now have 150 Notes in total. I also have a habit of going through it. It’s a way of recalling my old self as I grow, not to forget what I was, to know what I was thinking, and what I was going through.

131; until you crash, what have you done?

Now he’s gone, I don’t know why
And till this day, sometimes I cry
He didn’t even say goodbye
He didn’t take the time to lie.

Bang bang, he shot me down
Bang bang, I hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, my baby shot me down…

090; i’m not lost, i’m not gone, i haven’t forgot

And it’s okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I’ll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that’s okay
Cause I’ll remember everything you sang

088; all that i know is i don’t know how to be something you’d miss

I hope the sun shines, and it’s a beautiful day.
I hope something reminds you, you wish you had stayed.

There’s not a day I don’t miss your rude interruptions..

087; hello, goodbye

It’s breathtaking to think of you and to learn that sometimes the only way out is through. It’s mind-numbing to think of yesterday, I’d run to you now if I could, but things have changed. I heard you say it’s enlightening, think of the breeze, to believe in things that we can’t see.

It’s breathtaking to think of you and to learn without faith the sky isn’t as blue. It’s mind-numbing to think of yesterday. We’ll look to the stars that dream we’re airplanes. I heard you say it’s enlightening, think of the breeze. When you watch the sunset, think of me.

Think of me.